Renée's Ramblings

I have a friend who wrote on her blog. She called it "Susan's Musin's". So, the best I could think of, for a rhyming blog post, is 'Renée's Ramblings'. Thanks Susan for the idea. I was going to call it 'Renée Might Say', but the whole "rambling" thing really more describes me, as you can tell by this first paragraph. You ain't seen nothing yet!

Lately I've been put in contact with a few people from my past. Remember the show "This Is Your Life"? (I didn't think so, so look at the link and try to catch up already.) Well, that's the way things have been going for me. I've had to rack my brain to try to remember where I know people from. Apparently the sixties are a blur in my mind (not that I did any drugs or anything). Actually, my memory is very bad, regardless. Somehow I do remember all the bad things that happened, but some of them I had to be told about, in order to remember how bad they really were. Being 'cool' usually consisted of much alcohol, and or drugs, to prove that you could really have a great time. Ahh yes, getting 'wasted', 'stoned', and 'blotto' proves your brillance, and worthiness of the 'cool gang'. As you can imagine, this has provoked a lot of mixed feelings in my being. Part of me wants to remember, so that I can fully comprehend my sordid past, and part of me wants to flee. Already I am back in contact with a "girl" I used to hang out with. She and I were of the freaks/geeks set, meaning we had friends in both sections, long-haired-hippy types, and glee club types, all mixed up together. We listened to The Monkees and Led Zeppelin. We were in school plays and attended protest marches agains the Viet Nam War. I spoke to her briefly, and she told me that her and her husband had 'recently found the Lord again'. Really? I didn't know He was lost.

It is kinda funny to me though. In April of 2003 I lost all my so-called friends due to my regeneration. All of these new (really more like old) people lost contact with me a loooooooong time ago, and now they are being brought back into my life, just so I can go through the loss process all over again. Hopefully God has brought a few so that He can allow me to point the way to the Truth. I pray that is the reason. In the meantime, I don't plan to get too attached. I'm just going to ramble on.