Knock Knock

I hate that I am not meek, and in a weird sort of way, I'm glad I know it, even if it causes me pain. Maybe I rationalize it, and if you think so, say it. I think like this...

I am sad to see that I am not meek, but the fact that I KNOW that I'm not meek, makes me glad, because I think that if I were totally not meek, then I would think I AM meek.

Uhh what?

Yeah, you should actually have to live inside my head. You would need to buy a whole lot of spackle from beating your head into the wall. I, on the other hand, am used to it. I was wierd before I was regenerate, so now I'm just a different kind of peculiar.

Anyway, though it pains me to see a lack of meekness, it gives me joy that God has placed it upon my heart to continually pray for this attribute, since I know there is no way for me to gain it, unless it is given to me as a gift. Oh sure, I could fake it, but not for long. Besides, I'm quite convinced that God will see through the act.

I am reminded of Luke 11

5 And he said unto them, Which of you shall have a friend, and shall go unto him at midnight, and say unto him, Friend, lend me three loaves;

6 For a friend of mine in his journey is come to me, and I have nothing to set before him?

7 And he from within shall answer and say, Trouble me not: the door is now shut, and my children are with me in bed; I cannot rise and give thee.

8 I say unto you, Though he will not rise and give him, because he is his friend, yet because of his importunity he will rise and give him as many as he needeth.

9 And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.

10 For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.

11 If a son shall ask bread of any of you that is a father, will he give him a stone? or if he ask a fish, will he for a fish give him a serpent?

12 Or if he shall ask an egg, will he offer him a scorpion?

13 If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children: how much more shall your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to them that ask him?


So now in my continuous prayer I repeatedly knock, and remember that importunity will cause my Father to do that which He has promised. Though I never insist He 'owes' me anything, I do like to remind Him that He did promise to give us good gifts if we asked, and I can think of no better gift than meekness.

Knock Knock - Thankfully He's already made me excel at being annoying.